It’s the fifth week of the semester and I think I’m already starting to get a case of senioritis … granted, I’m still coming off that cold and I don’t feel all that great as yet, but I’m already starting to feel a bit of drain. The homework load for this weekend is obscenely big, so hopefully I can get a good start on it during the week and I won’t get burnt out at the end.
The fun part about the counseling I’m currently undergoing? Why, it’s trying to figure out the balance between caring for other people’s feelings and caring for my own, of course. I’ve always been pretty bad at looking out for my own concerns, and when I do put myself first, I tend to do something really stupid. (Witness the events surrounding the end of the Situation.) I think I’m about to swing this big uncertainty in my life back to more concern for myself than others (well, the other), and I’m hoping I don’t fuck things up worse than I already have in the past. The worst part is that I already know that if things don’t get resolved, I have no one but myself to blame. This is just bothering me too much, though; I have to do something. Wish me luck.