I was just over at Food Network’s Website to download a couple of recipes to send to C., and while I was there I decided to check out some other things I was interested in. Namely, I wanted to know why three out of the five Hot Off the Grill shows that have been airing each week have been without Jacqui Malouf. Officially, the Hot Off the Grill section of the site doesn’t have much to offer. But a not-so-brief detour into the Hot Off…

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Okay, I had a chance to talk with someone online about J. last night, and I think I know what I have to do. Bottom line, I have to e-mail her and let her know exactly what I’m thinking about what she said to me, without sugar-coating it. This won’t be easy for me because this kind of confrontation isn’t my strong suit, but if she is the friend I think she is then she should hopefully respond well and we can get this behind…

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Over the past couple of weeks I’ve been involving myself more with The Artists’ Way communities online, so it’s going to be interesting to see how they react to my most recent journal update. I’m finding I’m learning a lot more about the process from them, and they’re helping alter my outlook on the whole creative process in a very good way. After the kind of company I used to keep online, it’s nice to know that I’m in with the right crowd for me…

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I was wrong; sleeping on the situation with J. has only made things worse for me. This is more serious than I thought, and I’m starting to have doubts about whether or not I can sustain a healthy friendship with her. And this really bothers me, because J.’s friendship has meant a lot to me and it’s not something I want to lose. But if she continues to hurt me like she has these past couple of weeks, it would be unhealthy for me to…

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I should have known that saying things were okay with J. in here would be a curse. Earlier tonight she said a couple of things to me that have just put everything back into a difficult state. And while the things she said this time didn’t cut me quite so deeply, this time wasn’t just a case of her accidentally saying something at the worst possible time; this time she was saying things that she should have known better than to say. And because of…

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