Losing Interest

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When I said that I wanted the Red Wings to exit the playoffs early, I should have known that the universe would take that as a sign to get the Wings all the way to game seven of the Stanley Cup Finals, and then to have them lose in a real heartbreaker. Unfortunately, or fortunately depending on how you look at it, the universe threw a whole bunch of bad stuff at me right before then, so the Wings’ loss really didn’t affect me that much. That being said, between the way the NHL is going as a whole, and the Red Wings are going in particular, my enthusiasm for the Red Wings is just diminishing more and more. There was a time when I could craft my schedule around Red Wings games (and Hockey Night in Canada), but it feels like that time has passed now. My interest in sports has been diminshing a lot these past few years, but now I can barely be bothered to glance at the previous night’s Tigers score.

This isn’t true with just sports, either. Over the past couple of weeks I downloaded a lot of games to my Wii using the Wii Points I got for my birthday earlier this year, and I just can’t seem to be bothered to play them much at all. Even the sequel to Final Fantasy IV — which remained my favourite game ever even after I played Final Fantasy VII for a while, and the first video game to ever make me cry — has gone mostly unplayed for several days, even though I’ve had next to no responsibilities over this holiday weekend, and plenty of time to play video games. The number of video games I’ve bought but never even put in my systems to test out is growing to truly appalling levels, and I’ve even gone so far as to buy games for systems I don’t own yet. It feels like my buying habits have yet to catch up with the changes in my life that have seen things like sports and video games — and yes, as much as I hate to say it, this blog — to the wayside.

Unfortunately I can’t talk too much about the changes in my life recently, but suffice it to say that for the first time since I was in school, I actually have a social life. I feel like I’m making stronger bonds with people than I have in a long time, too, and I’m getting the opportunity to figure out some things about myself that I never knew before. Given how I am about self-knowledge, you can imagine what a cool thing this is for me. I can’t deny being kind of fearful, though, given how I’ve messed up situations like this in the past. I finally get a nice, long break from teaching after this month is over, and I’m hoping to use the next couple of months here to try to reintegrate things into my life that I’ve let slip for a while now. That should mean more blog entries, but it won’t, for example, mean paying more attention to sports. This blog still serves as an important outlet for me and a way of connecting with people; I just don’t feel that paying close attention to sports is doing me much good any longer.

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