Still Alive

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Oh yeah, I have a blog. It was a few Decembers ago that I first went a long time without updating here, and now here I am rushing to get something up here just so I don’t go a whole calendar month without blogging. A while back I could say that being on Twitter was responsible for cutting down on my blogging since I could just tweet when something small happened and didn’t have to make a huge blog about it, but these days I’m not even tweeting that much. After my most recent .journal entry I should probably be doing more to update everyone not in my immediate circle as to how things are going, but too often I just don’t even think to blog because, well, I’ve got so many other important things I’m spending time with.

Personally I am at least doing a little better than earlier; this past autumn was very rough on me, but I managed to pull out of it. About a week and a half ago I went out to a club in Bowling Green to see a friend who helped lighten my mood, but there are still a lot of personal issues I’m having to deal with on my own, and I’m definitely ending 2011 with much less of a support circle than I had to start with. I know that will get better, but some wounds from the past year are still healing and I’m trying to tend to those first so I can be a better friend to others.

On the professional front I really wish things were going better; my efforts there are a large part of the reason why I’m not spending so much time blogging and tweeting, and I wish I could say that I had some success to report there but I’m still spinning my wheels for the most part. I’m still in a position where something really big could break at any moment, but I can’t count on that happening and I’ve got too many troubles in the here-and-now to occupy me anyway. Part of me is halfway expecting the world to end next year just because, if the apocalypse happens, it’ll probably start about five minutes after I have my breakthrough.

As always, I’m more introspective on my birthday than the end of the calendar year, but there’s still a large part of me that’s glad 2011 is coming to an end. I’m not going to say 2012 can’t be any worse because I know it certainly can be, but if it is worse then it’s not going to be because I let things get worse. Time to get back to work. I’ll try to be better about updating here in the new year, I promise.

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