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I’m still thirty-three for a couple of more hours. Shaddup.

The Goddess blessed me today with a warm and sunny day. I was even able to hold class outside for the first time this calendar year, and I’ve got my window open as I type this up. As I normally do, I’ve spent much of my birthday in meditation, thinking about this past year and all the changes that have happened. Between Mom and I having health problems, Aunt Jo’s death, and all the changes in my personal life, I think it’s safe to say that this has been a very turbulent year for me. Even with all the chaos and difficulties, though, I’m feeling much more hopeful than I can recall feeling for a long time. In just the past couple of months I’ve written my first screenplay — editing of that should start sometime after this weekend — and I’m about a fifth of the way through writing my first novel. I know there are no guarantees that any of these will be successful, but just the experience I’m getting from doing these things is something that I’m treasuring.

At the same time, though, part of my self-discovery through these months has been that there are certain aspects of my life that I can no longer tolerate. Some of these things are external to me, and I can’t really talk about them that much right now, but suffice it to say that I’m hoping for even bigger changes in the coming year. Some of these things are internal, and I’ve already started working on some of them, but others are kind of scary to think about working on. I think I can do it, though. I’ve written about this in the past, and those of you who know me from another Website have heard more of the recent details, but I’m at a point now where I’ve found the environment and friends that are helping me deal with my past and the problems my past have caused me for so long. As Dad’s 64th birthday would have been Sunday, I’m reminded that nothing in life is certain, and I could fall back into the old ways at the drop of a hat. I’m really going to work on not letting that happen, though.

In .org news, it sounds like I’ll have until the end of April now to move the .org over to a new content management system, and I’m still leaning towards Movable Type. Anyone with experience with these things who has advice and/or is willing to help me install the new software and get my old entries moved over, I would appreciate it. You know how to get hold of me.

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