posted 2006/04/23 at 18:06
Normally I don't want the end of the semester to come so quickly because I'm worried that I won't have enough time to finish all of my end-of-semester papers and the like. This semester, though, I think I'm more worried that once the semester ends I'm going to fall into a tremendous depression pit, even by my standards.
I won't have classes over break, and my only academic responsibilities will be doing reading for the MA exam and re-learning Japanese, neither of which feels like a particular bother to me. What is bothersome, though, is that it looks like this break will be the loneliest three-plus months of my life.
I only have one real friend left here in the Toledo area, and she'll be moving to Australia here shortly. I'm getting sick and tired of the dance game community here locally, because so many people are starting to take on the juvenile and hurtful behaviour exhibited by so many of the "celebrities" of the dance game community. (I'd been thinking about trying to organize a tournament here over the summer, but now I don't even know if that would be worth the hassle of dealing with all those people.) I'd like to go back to the Carolinas for another tournament here, but that would cost me a lot of money, and I'm not sure I'll even have the cash for that given that I likely won't be making any money this summer.
It's not like I'm being that social right now, but at least with school in session I'm getting out of the house and interacting with my comp students and my fellow students in my grad school classes. It's not really socialization, but at least it's something. Once finals are over, though, I'm worried that I'll pretty much be here at the house all summer by myself. The thought of that is already depressing enough; I certainly hope that doesn't wind up being the reality of this next break.
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