There hadn't been much news about Grandma Shannon's condition recently, until yesterday when she fell and hit her head. She didn't suffer any kind of concussion, but while she was in the hospital the doctors noticed that her heartbeat was extremely weak, so they're about to install a pacemaker in her. My father just left to drive up to the hospital to be with her.
I don't know what to think here. For all that she (and Grandpa Shannon, when he was alive) ostracized me from the family, I still love her and I want her to be well. At the same time, though, ever since Grandpa Shannon died some four and a half years ago, she hasn't found a reason to live, and even though she won't say it, everyone around her knows that she wants to die. Am I supposed to wish her a quick and painless death, if that's what she really wants? Am I supposed to hope that she holds on her as long as possible if she doesn't really want to be here anymore?